This time every year, since I was 8 years old, I stand in front of a mirror and make a resolution to lose 20…or more pounds, exercise and finally, keep it up. Always feeling slightly puffier from a few extra glasses of seasonal eggnog, shortbread and mince tarts, I am determined to pull it all together and take revenge on those fat cells.
Yes, every year I delve into what has been my ‘program of torture’ only to find myself daily sneaking the Almond Roca and Purdy’s Pecan Rolls I found in my stocking.“Stop yourself…you are so awful!” Oh yeah, I’ve got self-talk that would have Louise Hay settling into a 3 month depression.
So today I sat down and considered what 2011 would be like if I just stopped.
Not stopped taking the odd bite of things I enjoyed but stopped beating myself up for never having one day of ‘skinny’ in my whole life. There has not been one moment when I didn’t lean forward to dip into a guacamole bowl and feel that little roll threatening to flip right over the top of my pants. Not one second, even when I was so much thinner, when I didn’t wish that I liked the feeling of elastic, spandex and lycra that are so useful in those ‘suck in the back- fat’ garments.
However this year, I am starting a revolution against self-punishment.
I pledge to do my best to keep myself healthy and living longer…(I mean really, have you seen my wife? I don’t want to miss a minute I could be having with her!) but I will not deny myself every delectable pleasure that’s put on a party table and nor will I buy into having to be the weight of a curling iron in order to feel valuable… cause baby I got a lot more to offer than a six pack and pigeon legs.
I’ve got music to write, videos to film, LGBT artists to promote, human rights battles to win…I mean really how the hell am I going to keep that up on carrot sticks and cottage cheese?!
Happy New Year Everyone!
Julie Lester
December 30, 2010
Cheers to that Marlee! Cheers to a happy, healthy 2011. Cheers to never depriving oneself of food for heart, mind, body & soul.
Love ya
C. Mist
February 20, 2011
You are an extraordinarily beautiful woman, Marlee, and I do mean that in a superficial, oh my gawd look how hot she is kinda way.
Yes, you have a beautiful heart & soul … but you are oh so easy on the eyes as well.
With all due respect, as you know, to your lovely wife.
Thank you for sharing this important message.
Peace, Love and Sugarbeach!
Mist